During our many conversations we discovered that we had many likes that mirrored each others. We like to think of it as puzzle pieces. Brian would tell me something that He liked or wanted and i would completely agree. Even if it meant in a different role kinda way. Or example, He wants to be the provider for His family. He wants His wife to stay home and take care of the family. i agree to this 100% and want to be the one to stay home. There needs to be someone home with the children. i want to focus on the family and more importantly Him. He is my everything. This was one of the many puzzle locking pieces that we mirrored. With all the “lockings” we are building a beautiful puzzle that will be our lives together. Everyone of the pieces fitting perfectly.
When i was ready to become completely His, i told Him that i would show Him by giving Him a very specific token as representation of my commitment to Him.
When i initially made my choice, i chose the wrong person. i did not realize it until i made the actual choice. Immediately i knew i should have chosen Brian. The next day on April 6 2014, i went to Him and told Him that i chose the wrong person and that i should have chosen Him, that i believe that i had to make the wrong choice to see what i was giving up so that i can make the right choice. He did not want to let me in the door, i did not blame Him but i was not taking “No” as an answer. i knew He loved me and i loved Him and i was not giving up on us. Just like He would not let me give up on us. i fought for Him to let me in…hard…i was prepared to sleep on His doorstep if needed. i had a blanket and pillow in my car. Fortunately for me, when He sawl that i finally started fighting for us, He let me in.
I gave Him the token of my commitment. He was a little mistrusting and dumbfounded at first. But, i just had put Him through emotional hell. i would not have trusted me either. Once He knew that this was real, that i finally was ready for all that He had to offer, He put on the token of commitment. It is a ribbon around my neck. It represents that i belong to Him, that i am His in every possible way. It shows Him and everyone in the world that i am trusting Him with my inner most thoughts and feelings, with my heart, my soul.
The symbol of my commitment to Him
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Since then we have been together every day. We moved in together on April 11, 2014. We knew that we needed to be side-by-side. We had became each other’s air. When we were not together we both got anxious and it felt like we were starting to suffocate. To some of you that sounds like we are clingy…yes, we are, very much so. It works for us as we are both of that mindset. We work together, we live together, we play together. For us, all this time spent together is making us stronger. Making the time we spend apart even more torturous. We live, eat, breathe, work, play together and we both do not want that to ever change. ….Well except the work part, but only when babies are born.